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I love this website. All PDF files, making multiple copies for a couple kiddies is easy. This copywork book looks like an interesting way to get C and R to practice writing/printing.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Feeling down and depressed again.
Feeling frustrated. Got a quote to have a prof. home organizer come in and help me sort through the basement. Help me purge the overflowing stuff that seems to be reproducing at an alarming rate. Really, I should and CAN do this alone, but having someone there to keep me going would be wonderful. Too bad this comes at a cost I cannot afford. It's not the hourly rate, so much, but the 12hrs she suggests it will take to get it done. That's 12hrs of her time, not including the 'homework' time. All this, and I'd have to have someone watch the kids. Nice idea. Realistically? Not happening. Would have been nice.
Today I am suppose to go to the laundromat and get the 2 big camping blankets cleaned. I cannot get out of this funky bad mood enough to get the kids out the door, into the van and to the place. I can't. Just can't. I cannot face doing something I'm not familiar with, with 3 children who cannot follow the simplest directions. I am filled with anger, frustration, resentment. I yell at the kids, I SCREAM at them, they just don't, can't, won't do anything I ask them to do anymore. I KNOW the screaming/yelling isn't working and is makign it worse, but how the hell do I fix this mess I'm in? I feel like I'm tumbling into depression again, the 2nd day in 10 that I've felt this way. Everything compounds when I feel this way. I know that getting out of the house would make me feel better, but I just can't bring myself to getting the kids out the door. I have threatened things, then completely did the opposite. This just makes me feel like a complete parenting failure. I can't even get that right. We haven't school'd in about a month. We're only on lesson 35 in math, equiv. of about 1/4 of our book for the year. Lesson 60 in Launguage (of 100). Calla really wants to learn French, but I just cannot get it together enough to do it. We have the books, it's just like everything else...good intentions, terrible plans. We do lots of art and creative things. The kids love Magic Tree House books, and the topics they're introducted to through that would be great starting points for further lessons, but...good ideas...bad planning.
I just want to sit and cry today. That's not getting anything accomplished,and only makes me feel worse. Wish I'd lose my voice for a week, so I didn't have to talk to anyone.
I always feel this down and depressed after having my parents over. Seeing my dad the way he is, the way my Mom has to treat him like a child, the way he gets angry that she treats him like a child. I guess I'm feeling selfish too. I really had envisioned my parents being able to take the kids for a few day during the nicer weather, to give them bonding time with their grandparents. Now that my dad has alzheimer's, it's not possible. He just can't stop picking on Rowan, teasing him endlessly. He can't handle the constant movement of the kids, their noise and activity.
Guess I should take my littlest one outside, as she's requesting. She loves to swing, and can swing as high as Rowan with a little starting push. The laundry needs to be hung. and I really need to figure out what to do with those 2 large camping blankets. One is a bit too big (it fits if I jam it in, but really, if it can't tumble how can it be clean?) for my front loader. The other can fit, but since I have to go for the one, better do both.
Today I am suppose to go to the laundromat and get the 2 big camping blankets cleaned. I cannot get out of this funky bad mood enough to get the kids out the door, into the van and to the place. I can't. Just can't. I cannot face doing something I'm not familiar with, with 3 children who cannot follow the simplest directions. I am filled with anger, frustration, resentment. I yell at the kids, I SCREAM at them, they just don't, can't, won't do anything I ask them to do anymore. I KNOW the screaming/yelling isn't working and is makign it worse, but how the hell do I fix this mess I'm in? I feel like I'm tumbling into depression again, the 2nd day in 10 that I've felt this way. Everything compounds when I feel this way. I know that getting out of the house would make me feel better, but I just can't bring myself to getting the kids out the door. I have threatened things, then completely did the opposite. This just makes me feel like a complete parenting failure. I can't even get that right. We haven't school'd in about a month. We're only on lesson 35 in math, equiv. of about 1/4 of our book for the year. Lesson 60 in Launguage (of 100). Calla really wants to learn French, but I just cannot get it together enough to do it. We have the books, it's just like everything else...good intentions, terrible plans. We do lots of art and creative things. The kids love Magic Tree House books, and the topics they're introducted to through that would be great starting points for further lessons, but...good ideas...bad planning.
I just want to sit and cry today. That's not getting anything accomplished,and only makes me feel worse. Wish I'd lose my voice for a week, so I didn't have to talk to anyone.
I always feel this down and depressed after having my parents over. Seeing my dad the way he is, the way my Mom has to treat him like a child, the way he gets angry that she treats him like a child. I guess I'm feeling selfish too. I really had envisioned my parents being able to take the kids for a few day during the nicer weather, to give them bonding time with their grandparents. Now that my dad has alzheimer's, it's not possible. He just can't stop picking on Rowan, teasing him endlessly. He can't handle the constant movement of the kids, their noise and activity.
Guess I should take my littlest one outside, as she's requesting. She loves to swing, and can swing as high as Rowan with a little starting push. The laundry needs to be hung. and I really need to figure out what to do with those 2 large camping blankets. One is a bit too big (it fits if I jam it in, but really, if it can't tumble how can it be clean?) for my front loader. The other can fit, but since I have to go for the one, better do both.
Thursday, May 07, 2009
Tomorrow is Exam day
It's the night before the 'big' exam. One little 2 hr music theory exam. Grade 2 Rudiments (aka Advanced Music Theory)
Can anyone tell me the Italian/German and or French terms and their definitions? Cadences? 2nd inversion of the dominant 7th of F# Minor? the Enharmonic scale of g flat minor from subtonic to subtonic??
I'm excited, nervous and relieved all at once. I now know that trying to do one course while 3 kids are at home is not an easy task. Try explaining to your 2 1/2 yr old that Mommy needs to study, so NAP!
Gotta run, need to review one last time before 10pm.
Wish me luck! I write at 9:30am Friday.
Can anyone tell me the Italian/German and or French terms and their definitions? Cadences? 2nd inversion of the dominant 7th of F# Minor? the Enharmonic scale of g flat minor from subtonic to subtonic??
I'm excited, nervous and relieved all at once. I now know that trying to do one course while 3 kids are at home is not an easy task. Try explaining to your 2 1/2 yr old that Mommy needs to study, so NAP!
Gotta run, need to review one last time before 10pm.
Wish me luck! I write at 9:30am Friday.
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